彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

a nice song by jay chou...
today had done the english assignment and bio test.both tests were okay i think but bio test abit guai. haix, haven't hand in the chinese si1 han2 and olmpic thingy and history... a normal day though... still having sore throat and sound so weird. anyways, this song is abt this guy with cancer and he wanted to live this girl for her good, so brave... really sad though.. today, friday, the end of the week already and its still the same.. time really gone pass faster than you think, and maybe by the time i think back, i would have leave this school. why does it keep going non stop and changing everything as time goes on...?
how i wish to stay forever stuck in the time when others are going on in the time, alone back in time. who is it that invented time in this world, it hurts when you look at it how time passes... why did i come to this world? what am i? why am i me? remembering those kindergarten days and primary school days... if i had done something different, just a little difference,things now will be really different. there are too many choices in life, with different future, a wrong choice will make you have a worst future... if only time can be turn back, there would be a difference between you and me.. i had done smth wrong that cant be change becausse time have pass............................ from all those smses, we had became strangers that don't even talk, don't even look at each other, don't even know each other as friends anymore even when we walked pass each other, there's no more HIs or any smile anymore.. we have totally became strangers, rmbing those times you would keep disturbing me, they're gone forever.. there's no more you, and we would just walk pass each other like stranger does worst than strangers maybe... that time would always sms you only you... but no seems like i don't sms anymore, and even let kevin to use my smses.. i felt so empty, i wonder are all those moments true, are you true to your friends? or is it just me because i had done smth wrong... its already gone FOREVA it will nv come back its only history between us... cause the mark will FOREVA be there.. and i wan hurt you no more, i don't wanna do anymore things wrong so i'll stay really far away.. it hurts when u approaches, i dun wanna see it anymore. this scar will stay in your mind and mine foreva which we cannot recover frm... u seems to be further and further away frm me everyday and we are lyk heaven and earth that can nv meet.. i keep finding all those bad points of you to forget you but i cant, jus cant... even when you say that the posts sounded so true, u said it frm another ppl blog and it hurts cause its actually frm me.. and would you have actually said those words to me if he nv copied my posts... after writning all this you will still be thinking otherwise, nv would think on my side.. haix,i jus hope you would be able to really lyk a guy and would be true to him.


cause its all gone forever thing done cant be undone time passed cant be rewind...

today sunday already, tmr sch's back after the long weekend for meD; haven hand in the olympic chinese thingy and the long long zuo wen yet, haix, felt so failure sia...
ytd was lots of fun, anw, illness gone alr z the 'qian bu gou yong 2' it was real funny... watched frm 10 to 12plus midnight;D loads of fun and laughter^^ later after the show, we went 24-hrs the mac's to eat till 1plus alr... second bro watch-ed b4 so nv go watch. anw, aunt jus came back frm australia and got lots of choco and some bars thingy...
today, a short day wanted to play dota with chengxiu but cant-.-// my com got dota and cs leh, real cool;D thats the end, a short posts on ytd...

i am still there for uuu!!!

im not going sch this two days... will miss the chinese test... then maybe english assignment oso...
and alot of hw...
!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*()!@^&*()!@#$%^&*()_+!@#$%^&*()_+
i realised that it really suxs!!

yeah, im back for a short post;D anw, am very sian now but still need finish the olympic thingy and shinglee maths wb... and i wanted to say something and that is i am really lazy to reply everything nowadays... had lit presentation just now, i think screw-ed up alr. anw was ill but still go sch cause of the presentation!!
and i am learning some jumpstyle thingy with bro nowadays, its real cool:> and com's dota is back!! im back to dota now!!


everthing is going to end now!!
i had overcome it!!

today is the marathon run... and i think i had done my best or maybe not?
woke up at 4.30am this early morning and walked to mac's to eat with kevin had breakfast there, ate fillet-o-fish and it was high in ENERGY!! then after that miss the 1st bus 14 to east-coast but the next bus come in a short while. it was really early at abt 5.30 lyk that oni...
boarded the bus and it was lyk 'no ppl' that sat on the second decker. listened to the emo songs in phone and waited, waiting for the time to past...
reached temasek sec and alighted on the second stop later but it was wrong-.- theres still another stop...haixed
then walked to the assemble point which is a long way, and faster and faster we walked cause kev wanted to pee and very urgent... saw the toilet after the under-pass and he choing-ed there and i followed...
now to the nice part, we went to the jetty to sit and emo-ed really... it was dark no ppl and we were at the end with the cold sea wind blowing which makes me sad really sad...
then we oso saw another chungcheng guy there. as time pasts, the sun rises, it was real nice to see it from the view orangegy sky, it seems so real! had a few shots of it and oso aeroplanes was lyk keep flying pasts the sunrise cause the air-port is near that side.. the sea became real nice when the light shines on it and the sea reflect the light in ripples of water. walk to the assemble place quiet early cause dun wan get caught of going to jetty...

now to the run, anw was not singing the songs cause no songs sheet;D during the run, i ran ran and ran... did my best le i think, never looked behind and suddenly saw kevin running pasts me when i thought he was in front and i choing lyk mad to run with him. then he ran by my side and we ran tgt;D saw tszhin and yanlun very invar cannot even get near them.. ran with kev a long distance... but later i took over but at turning point he took over cause i drank water.... then ran tgt again but at the end i keep running and stopping cause very tired le-.- and finally got no.37;D not bad eh?

then price giving thought i gonna get nothing cause not in top ten but later our class boys got third and gals got 1st!! grats. and i got a trophy too cause got 4th in class;D kev got 40 and i got 37 in level pos...

after marathon, we went to lan, eat and shopped at tm and played arcade. spent lots of money but still tried to save but dunno why they cabbed there-.- anws, its fun luh..

reached home, no keys waited for bro then he saw the trophy and knew i went to east-coast, he went there too for army purpose, road march... so its them that i saw jus now at marathon with guns!! then he say that alot of funny things when he's there and he said the gals in our sch very zhen4dian3-.- hahha. anw, i wanna go to the jetty again, hope it will be soon...its nice nice and nice! but every year will go once oni, last year oso go with kev...


haixed, finally overcome it,
but i felt i am so guilty in front of you,
felt so nervous when u're there,
dared not go past you when u were i n front:'(. still the same...

it is getting more and more wierd nowadays, dunno why every thing that are over i would try to go and treasure it and the future looks so normal to me. sometimes i dun even wan it to come so that everything stops here, stop right now! but when thinking back i felt so remorseful. haixed pls stop it stop thinking abt all things and be quiet, quiet for the whole time...

when you look here, now i finally know why you did so... you are looking at someone else.. do you even know how im feeling? but i had ard made up my mind to forget you... and continue with life, my life is messed up now and im lagg behind in life. gotta study hard but not very sure that i would get good grades, i jus wish that i could change sch cause i should'nt have come... start a 'new life' in the other sch with new friends and new classmates and schmates. i jus wanna forget abt all the unhappiness, forget abt me as a failer in this sch;'c haixed, dunno wat to do i jus wanted to go to another place!!.................. u gotta takecares!!




Sch was fine today.
Going to run now, training for the cross-country run and many other runs in future...

Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wish ing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already
had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not
care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would bein my heart.
Would I be in yours?

If you care about me as much as I care about you
you will send this back

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up < face="Impact" color="#3366cc" size="6">to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends


Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.


Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and takecomfort in knowing
somebody out there cares about you and ........... always will..

I care about YOU !!


Send this to all the friends that you have...all the friends that you've lost...and to all the friends you've lost touch with...just to let them know that you care...

yeah, got this frm email, a chain massage.. after reading it, felt so alike with the things i wanted to say but are unable to.. so posted it;D

really, u made me felt this way
when is it going to end
i felt so miserable everytime
but i think everything is going to
end by the end of this year
and maybe we still havent really talk to each other yet
haixed, hope that time would heals everything..
u would never know of wat i am thinking of;(
i jus wished to have...
have the ability to see things real slow
and i would be able to prevent it frm happening
i would be fast enough
to stop it...



Yesterday, early morning i went to hand in the cross-country form to Mr khoo and he said' bingxin ar, ur hair very long leh..' and i said' oh, i going to cut this weekend'
then, he said'Woah, u wearing ring ar?' and continued 'married already ar why must wear ring?' and i shaked my head and said nothing.
Then he said 'see Mr khoo married already also never wear ring leh.' Then i laughed and he told me to go and have a hair cut...
So, i am going to cut my hair liao... and everyone was like so happy that i finally got caught-.- Haixed.. Mr khoo was so good never tell me go yellow line..